Marie's "get to know me" Mixtape

*WARNING A LOT OF READING AHEAD!

Side A; The beginning 

So if you really want to get to know me, we might well start of at the beginning. About the songs that remind me of everything that got me through my younger years. 

Track 1. Glad you came - The Wanted https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ggzxInyzVE

Oddly enough this was one of the first songs I had ever listened to when I got my first phone, it reminds me of so many things, like my best friend I had then or a time when my parents were still together. A time were I was happy at school. I don't really listen to this song anymore but when I do it helps me fell better about life and my surroundings. 

Track 2. Maps - Maroon 5 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y7ix6RITXM0

Every time I listen to this song it honestly breaks my heart because so many things happened when I started listening to this song. I had just had my heart broken, from a guy who I thought was my first love. My mom had just left us because my parents decided to get a divorce. This song tends to help me cry and help me move forward from whatever is happening. 

Track 3. They don't know about us - One Direction https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIFo7jKH8tc

It was christmas eve and my family and I were singing karaoke when I put this song on they all sang with me and it was the first time in a while I felt so loved and cared for. This song is much more then a faint memory to me but remembrance of what my family is to me. I will always love this song.

Track 4.  Oh hell - SoMo https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urd5Vr8GCWM

When my parents divorced my dad started to drink more and took it out on me and one night I had this song playing when he was yelling at me and throwing things at me, I hate the memories this song brings back but as I see it now they are memories of my dad so I keep this on repeat. 

Track 5. Wait for you - Elliot Yamin https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xaHyvAMLk7U

When I listen to this song it reminds me of when I left from El Paso to Albuquerque, I started Freshman year here and it was difficult to leave my brother and father. I now listen to this song when I start to miss my brother so I know he's always just a phone call away. 

Side B; Whats left now? 

Track 1. Unfaithful - Rihanna https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rp4UwPZfRis

Me trying to figure out my life 

this song reminds me of just a really low point in my life, when I was in the hospital and officially diagnosed with epilepsy and depression so a lot was happening and i had unfaithful on repeat. Now when I listen to the song it makes me smile and think about how far I've gotten. 

Track 2. You're beautiful - James Blunt https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oofSnsGkops

When I hear this song I think of just how much of a wonderful connection me and my mother have now. I remember it like yesterday when we sat at the dinning room table and sang this song together. 

Track 3. I don't dance - Hight school musical 2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7B9Nv-Z9ag

When I was younger I wound watch the High school musical movie almost everyday and even now as a teenager I will watch them with my parents to reminisce. It was summer of last year and my father and I were watching HSM2 when then song "I don't dance"came on and he started to sing and dance to it. I got and and joined him so we ended up singing and dancing to it together. This song will always remind me of that day, and of my dad. 

Track 4. We belong together - Mariah Carey https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0habxsuXW4g

It was New years eve when I decided to put this song on repeat, My father had stage four pancreatic cancer and was dying in front of our eyes. He ended up dying at 4:30 in the morning while I was at home listening to this song and trying to fall asleep without him. "When you left I lost a part of me" "Who else am I gon' lean on when times get rough who's gonna talk to me on the phone till the sun comes up who's gonna take your place there ain't nobody better"  these specific lyrics bring up his death and how much I really miss him. At first I thought he was faking and just messing them because I could still picture him breathing but this song keeps him memory alive in my head. 

Track 5. You are my sunshine - Johnny Cash https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZgT0JTXIxMo

 When I was younger my parents used to sing this song to me to help me fall asleep. My father would rock me in his arms and my mom would sing. After my father died my mom sang this song to me to remind me of when her and my father would sing to me.