My remarkable scars

 I remember it being a really cold morning and waking up really late for school. I remember the yelling and i remember being confused. It felt like pure chaos was going on, i remember not being able to feel my hands or legs and stumbling to my mirror. I sat down to see myself and do my hair for what i knew what was going to be a long day. I pushed back my hair from my face and took a deep breath, then i looked down and to my surprise i couldn't help but scream. I ran into the hallway not knowing who i was exactly talking to and asked what was happening to me. There were third degree burns on my right hand and thigh. At that moment i was so unaware of what was happening but so trusting to these people who i didn't recognize, i couldn't even recognize myself. Everything felt so unreal.
 What felt like months later, i was at a hospital, listening to about ten different doctors asking the same question over and over again. I turned my head slightly to the right and my mom gave me one of the warmest smiles i have ever seen in my lifetime. i remember thinking how bad i felt for not remembering her. I felt guilty and ashamed. My thinking was cut off by these people asking if i did it to myself on purpose. I remember how angry my mother got from just the thought of the idea. i couldn't help but laugh, and of course that laugh didn't last long long when the doctors told me i would be in the hospital for the next two weeks.
 Throughout the next two weeks i had three surgeries, two MRI's and a whole lot of medication. It was probably the longest i have gone without taking a shower or having a decent meal. everyone would tell me how strong i was being in the hospital but the second i left the hospital, i cried and cried because it was one of the hardest experiences of my life.